…where I start taking expensive pregnancy tests. Don’t judge me. I buy a 3 pack. It’s with my HSA pre-tax $$, though! I bought them last night and have already taken two. Oops. The first one was stupid because my pee was practically water by 4:30pm. I should’ve waited until morning like a smart person. Then, I woke up at 3am to pee and figured that was technically my “first morning urine”. I thought surely this one would be positive. That was some very concentrated pee! (TMI, sorry)
I don’t really “feel pregnant” other than having heartburn the past couple days. I never get heartburn. But, alas, it was negative. Nothing to bring you down at 3am like a negative $4 pee stick. You should see me stare at it for 5 minutes as if my staring will result in a line appearing. I’m glad Philip was asleep for this, even though he HATES it when I take a test without him. I just much prefer him to be gone when I take them because then I don’t feel quite as much pressure.
I suppose it’s still early. I’m about 10-11 days past ovulation. You can get a positive as early as 9 days past ovulation (9dpo) but some people get them as late as 14dpo. So, technically I’m not out yet. It’s cycle day 29. I would just wait to see if my period is late but my cycle length varies by up to 10 days each month so I have no idea when “late” is. I’m going to try holding out a couple more days before testing again. And I refuse to buy more than 3 since First Response is pretty much the most sensitive test anyway. Normally I buy the $$ store tests but they are SO small that it makes my squinting game far more difficult. Think I’m a crazy person yet? If so, you’re probably right. I’m crazy about wanting a baby. And God is crazy about me. So, I know He’ll bless us one way or another with a family.
Here’s my plan. After my next test in a couple days, if it’s negative, I’ll be calling my OB/GYN office. The PA, who I just love, told me if we didn’t conceive before the end of 2013 we could call and get a prescription for Clomid. It’s a medicine that makes you ovulate just in case you’re not. You have to start it on day 3 of your cycle so I want to be sure to get in before that happens. Thankfully it’s not an expensive drug from what I’ve read since I have a new high-deductible insurance plan and have to pay out of pocket until I meet it. I haven’t talked to P (hubby) but I’m pretty sure he’ll be on board. He’s been very “go with the flow” about this whole thing. I love him for that.
For now, I still have hope, but am prepared for trying a new route and continuing to trust God’s plan is perfect. Thanks for reading.
Delight yourself in the LORD and He will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4